I’d be the first to admit that I’m afraid to fall in love. I’ve been there and I’m so thankful to have been loved and felt loved. I have up a thick ass wall that NO ONE can tear down but myself. Well I’m afraid so what do you actually expect? I try not to get to intimate with guys because I refuse to set myself up for emotional failure. I’ve realized that intimacy controls it all! Intimacy creates a bond between two people. That bond then becomes an emotional attachment. If there is no intimacy then I’ll never get attached. This works out so much better for me. No one has to like it but its really my choice. Most likely I’ll never get married (which is probably the reason I prefer to plan weddings). I like to be as realistic as possible with myself. I don’t have expectation of guys because that’s when people start to let you down. When your vision is blurred by love you tend to have unrealistic expectations of love and your partner. I have yet to understand why this happens but it happens EVERYDAY! Lack of communication can send your relationship issues OVERBOARD!
But who am I kidding? I can create a huge wall and pretend I’m the toughest person around. That doesn’t mean someone won’t come along and this imaginary wall (that I led myself to believe in) will have been long forgotten. Truth is I’m no different from everyone else that wants love and to feel loved. I have not given up on love and you shouldn’t either. This can be such a trial and error situation… Learn from your past mistakes. Makes change the necessary … whether is about you, your expectations or the characteristic you are looking for in a mate. Don’t be afraid to love. Try to open your heart to new possibilities. I wouldn’t want you to miss out on what can be the best thing ever.
