The Wall Part 1

For the past few years I’ve been protecting my heart, so that it wouldn’t feel that ache anymore.  I’ve been too afraid to open up.  It didn’t matter how perfect a guy could be; I’d manage to push him away. I thought all men wanted the same thing. If that was the case well I would have to want it too. It’s just not as fun if we both don’t want it.  I’m sure you can agree with that. I’ve come to realized that "the wall isn’t so bad." Or if I remind myself daily then eventually I would believe it.  I felt like it’s so much easier to think like a man and give them exactly what I thought they wanted. I’m upfront, open & honest. I don’t get emotionally involved.  Heck that Steve Harvey  book says  “Act like lady, think like a man”… well this is me.  Then one day … I was caught off guard.