Happy Holidays!

Let's not forget the true reason for the holiday. Its about family friends and giving to those who are less fortunate. Share  hugs and laugh with all your love ones. I'm not saying that the world is ending, but our time here is limited. You never know who will go next. So, appreciate life and all you have today for tomorrow is not promised.

You are wonderful and I love you just for reading.

Much love & Happy Holidays
xoxo
Melivee

... The Prayer

Can you believe that when I opened my eyes this morning

I prayed before him
As the tears run down my face
And the pressure from building around my heart
I swear you are playing tricks on me
So I prayed the Lord will let me know

You opened my eyes to see the true needs

As my tongue rolls and my words sound more like humming
musical tunes from my throat
It was so Heaven sent
Prayer so clear
disturbing to the average ear
passionately expressed tune from the heart.

Letter to Love: Part 2

I'm sitting here thinking...

wondering...

Can you hear me love?

 

Dear Love

 
The problem is that I don’t know where to start. It's going to be a year since I’ve blindly opened my mind to you. Not long after I opened my heart, body and spirit. I would have never guessed I'd feel this way about you today. I sit and wish you could open up your heart to me but know it’s impossible at the moment. I know you still hurt from your past... I know you need to heal. I know that I love you and just want to be here for you... Love I am here patiently waiting for you.

 
You're such a big part of my life love. I've never felt like this before. It refreshing as inhaling crisp air after a storm has past. Where there are no doubts about being comfortable in my own skin. I love the person you've helped me become. You've always made the world seem so much easier when you're around. For that I am grateful.

My thoughts today

When you find someone who makes you feel special, who can make you laugh, who appreciates you for who you are, who makes life feel easy when they're around. Hold on tight to them. Appreciate them, love them and keep them close to your heart. They are hard to find.

Lonely cold nights

Sometimes I sit and watch the rain. It so peaceful and calming. I just wish I had someone to sit here and reflect with me. Even if for a little while. The thought of companionship seems so close yet so far away. Cold lonely nights just don't get easy. Sometimes I wonder if there is really someone out there for me...
Someone who can be my friend, my love, a partner, my other half who can remind me that everything is going to be ok.
I'm know I'm not perfect or easily understood. Nights like this I just want to be held. What woman doesn't want to be held by that right person at that right moment.

I guess I'm totally having a moment right now.

...OR maybe NOT

I was scrolling through the numbers in my phone
I saw your name and
I attempted to push the call button
or maybe not

I was hoping you'd call to say hello
maybe you were thinking of me
or would consider spending some time
or maybe not

I saw the look in your eyes last time we kissed
the sadness felt from lip to lip
I was hoping you'd open up
or maybe not

I seen the way you look at her
how your eyes admire her smooth brown skin
the hope that maybe one day she'd love you back
or maybe not

I hoped you listened last time we spoke
I promised to hold you and never let go
confessed love deeper than ocean floors...
or maybe not

I promised to love & cherish
Submit to you
just be here... be your rock
or maybe not

Maybe this time letting go wont be so hard
Maybe I'll no longer want to know...
Sometimes I just no longer want to feel
or maybe not


~A little piece of me~
~Hope you likey~

Gray Areas

Everyone wants to be "real". People claim they are the realest around. Well being "real" ain't so easy when emotions are involved. These gray areas come about when you don't want to hurt someone's feelings. 
It's such a gray area... you want to say I love you with all my heart but you don't say it because you you're not ready to accept rejection or just don't want to lose what you already have.
Can you keep it real AND take a chance on love? Just a thought. 

~~~

Unconditional love is known as affection without any limitations.
Unconditional Love is a dynamic and powerful energy that lifts us through the most difficult times.
Is you love free of limitations?

Close your mouth!

Yeah I said it! Close ya mouth! Stop telling your friends all your business. They forget all the BS that they've been through with their man and tell you not to deal with yours. They tell you that they could never deal with a man like yours... Maybe even tell you that you're stupid. But guess what! All relationships have trial. No one is perfect! Yet we (people) tend to forget how what exactly we've gone through to get to where we are today.

What do you want?

Are you the woman that wants candy, flowers, romance? Will you appreciate the man that offers all of this and more? Now let’s be realistic here. Romance isn’t dead. It’s just expected in specific ways. Candle lit dinners, flowers,  blah blah blah. This is where us women (yes “us”, YOU, well lots of us) need to open our mind to other romantic possibilities other than what we see on TV.

 

It’s the moment he stops what he’s doing to give you a big embrace.  The moment you’re watching a movie and he kisses your hand. The moment you feel loved and he doesn’t even have to say it.

All that you see in the movies… candle lit dinners, flowers… all those things are possible with the man you have today. If those are the only things your relationship is lacking them MAYBE just MAYBE you should appreciate the man you have and romance him a bit. Your man needs to feel appreciate too!

 

But back to your ideal romantic situation… Do you know what that is?

Him

He’s open hearted, caring, loving, a great father, knows how to be my friend and my lover. Secure enough to know that I’ll never leave his side because he takes care of home. We give each other enough personal space so that our time together is much appreciated. He’s book smart & street smart. Knows how to handle my unconventional ways but loves me for that anyway. He knows all that I’ve been through because he’s been such a great listener. He forces me to articulate my feelings because he know that I rather not say a thing. I mostly push my feelings aside and pretend like its nothing. I don’t usually communicate well when it comes to my feelings. He figured me out. He touches my heart & soul in a way that no other man can. He lifts me up even when he’s not trying to.

Knows how to hold his feelings aside and responds to me like a true friend.

Because of all this… I want to love him even more. Show him love like he’s never seen before. Lift him up, be his #1 fan, his love, his friend
I just hope that when I see him... He's ready for me too.

Sometimes you never know love until you feel it. When it happens you must be ready to open your heart it. You can miss out on greatness if you don't.

Sometimes...

Sometimes you meet that guy that makes you want to smile again,  feel again, heck love again. Fall for this opportunity. Embrace the possibilities of greatness. Even if you are afraid. Be brave and willing to love and share love.

...and That's OKAY

You can meet lots of people, go on a few dates and not connect with anyone. Then there is that one person that comes along and makes you feel as if you can do this all over again. Guess you can say that I thought I found him. What I found was a little unexpected pain. Just a little.

I thought I found a friend… someone who was okay with me taking my time (If you know me, then you KNOW I can take A LOT OF TIME),  over the time he became a great lover. He made me want love again. I haven’t been intimate with a man in so long that I started to look forward to those intimate moments. I can tell you now, when you are intimate with someone an amazing bond can be created. It is truly a beautiful thing. I don’t recommend being intimate with just anyone. It takes away the true value of intimacy.

Getting to the point… People come into our lives for a reason. Sometimes it may not be what we want or how we expect it.  AND ITS OKAY!

Seven Johnson Said “Stop making your Preparer  your Priority. That  person isn’t meant to Open Their  Heart To Love You.. They’re there to Open The Door for Who’s Going To Love You.

The Reason that love Hurts A Lot is because you’re putting A LOT in what’s Meant To Hurt.”

I believe this person came into my life to prepare me for love. The little pain was short felt because he is still my friend. I may never know the full story and that’s okay with me. Friends are loving and caring no matter the situation. I am forever loving & caring with all of my friends.

"Stop waiting for my heart to take responsibility for its mistakes… There are no mistakes."

That feeling

it doesnt matter how hard you try

or how may times you've failed

you may feel as though

its been  too many times

that you've sat in the this room

in the very same spot

or

Justing over thinking

about what should be

or just

wanting to be held

waiting to be love

just waiting my turn.

sitting here waiting for love

you can love yourself so much

be as confident as you want

but truth is we all need to be loved by someone other than ourselves

without love life feels worthless

Greener Grass on the other side?

 I think its funny how people are always moving on and moving forward and always looking for bigger and better. Dont miss out on the greatness around you. Bigger & better could already be in your face...
We are human and we make mistake but the best part is when you are still loved after those mistakes. No situation will ever be perfect but the best situations have the best of memories, both good and bad.  Think about it... I know that one person said something to turn on you but their an overall great person. Why not give them a chance? Or maybe is that one person you connect well with but they just werent ready yet... be their friend. Dont give up on people so fast. Just make the best out those situations.

"the grass aint greener on the other side"
Be patient, nurture your grass, water it, love it harder everyday... and watch it grow.

Rules to the Game?

There are some unwritten rules or shall I say unspoken rulesto the single life. These rules people expect you to just know or should just be aware by nature.

If its just sex, expect it to be just that and nothing else. We all need it (some more than others). So as a result, we take on partners. FWB (Friends with Benefits) can work out well but let's be honest. It wont be long before someone develops some sort of emtional attachment.

Be cautious of your actions especially if start to developemotional attachment. Why come? We are human and we all yearn for companionship. We all want to love and be loved back.

Keep it simple

I'm a lover of the simple things in life. The best things in life are truly FREE! Think about it for a sec...
The beauty of nature... whether its mountains, snow, the forrest, the ocean, animal watching (or people watching) you will find beauty every where you go. The beach is one of my favorite places to go. Whether its just to watch the waves, play in the sand or just to reflect on life a bit.  This summer I plan to take longs walks on the beach and let the water touch my toes. Its something about the sensation of standing on warm sand while the cool water splashes on my feet. I want the sand to stick to my skin until it drys and falls off.  I'm so ready to just wiggle the sand out of my toes.  Sometimes I watch the sunset and end the night with a sky full of star. So when the big things in life get you down... end your day with life's simple pleasures.

Spring fling or maybe love again?

Its that moment you realize how much fun you've been having. Long talks in person or on the phone, all day text convos... It feels as if this can go on forever. So how do you define it? Or do you? It's spring time and everyone wants to have fun. That's exactly what this is about right? It feels so right. Pure perfect imperfection. The moment you feel as though their flaws no longer matter. You've finally let someone in... And then Spring comes to an end.

Valentine's Day: What to do?

Well recently on facebook a friend posted a question asking for gift ideas and things to do.

 

Well here were my thoughts:

 

• Order take, set your table up for fine dining, order linens, flowers, petals, candles. Some things never get old if you don't do them often.
• Set up a pamper night, call in a masseuse, don't forget music, dinner must be 4 course and don't forget the wine.
• Long term relationships I say personalized gifts with flowers or edible arrangements, bathrobes, heart locket, money clips, keepsakes are great!
• Hotel rooms are great! Don forget the sexy lingerie, and iPod Set to your preplanned playlist, keep an open mind.
• Hampton Inn in Hermosa beach! They have whirlpool tubs & a great view! Watch the sunset on the beach. If you don't do dinner please do dessert & wine. wine glasses are .99 @ the dollar tree
• wine country for wine tasting & of course you will want to view the sites.... Rent out a suite at th Tickle Pink Inn (It's a fav of mine)

Have a wonderful Valentine Weekend

Can you Love... Again?

There's no real reason to run from it. We all need to feel, share and give love. There are so many broken hearts that fall and break, that it puts a damper on wanting to involve your heart again. I think the real reason people are afraid is because they focus too much on the bad things than they do the positive things.

Sometimes we just need to change our focus. Focus on all the great things and you wont worry about the bad.

Just a thought

90's Music

Remember when music was simple. When it was okay to sing about Love and how simple it could be? A friend of mine posted these on Facebook so I decided to share them with you. Hope you enjoy them as much as I did.








Thank you Pariss El. I can't end this without sharing something of yours.

The Beginning: Pretty Great Huh?

The beginning is where it all starts.  (Well DUH right?) Its when it all seems perfect. Well this is because this is the moment you know nothing but what you've seen thus far. You're Flirting, telling jokes, and just having a good time. In the beginning you give each so much attention that it just fees good to know that someone has interest in you. After all, its been so long since anyone wanted to get to know you the way this person has been trying. Small talks turn into long talks. You've never thought something so simple can make you feel so good.

First text to that first phone call... to the first time you're hanging out.
When you think its nothing but it feels like something. Then its that moment you realized that "this something" is starting to feel great. Because these "Good morning honey" text messages are just some of the things that make you smile. Or when he moves that strand of hair behind your ears and remind you of how beautiful you are... As great as it feels, you eventually have to realize that the only way to progress is knowing that the other person feels the same.

Dear Someone New, I'm Always Thinking Of You!

Dear Someone New,

The past few months have taken me by surprise. I know I’m great at saying I’m not ready for anything serious. Sometimes I’m even great at showing it. I really don’t want it to seem like I’ve changed my mind overnight. I want to tell you that I’m ready to take a chance, but I don’t want to push you away.  I thought I wasn’t ready to open up but truth is, you’ve had me since our first conversation. I must admit that I’m amazed at our unlimited conversation topics. Sometimes it hard to believe that we have a lot in common.

-Hope you feel the way I do.

 

Have you ever felt this way? Like you’ve just had a reality check. Realizing that as much as you say  that you may not want a relationship, is as much as you want it? You never really realize it until you find yourself smiling with every text message or a random thought. Or get this… randomly END UP TALKING ABOUT THIS PERSON!  Key sign that says your heart has let someone in.

Hanging

Things are always good in the beginning. It seems like you have so much in common. You have moments where it feels or seems so obvious that you both are on the same page... you have so much in common...and then... the deal breaker. You know that moment where something is said and you're left wondering...WHAT WENT WRONG? Did I miss something? I thought it was going so well. It could have been going so well. And you could have so much in common, but lack of communication can leave you hanging.

Don't get left hanging. Find someone that's willing to communicate with you.
An open heart & mind also needs open communication.