...OR maybe NOT

I was scrolling through the numbers in my phone
I saw your name and
I attempted to push the call button
or maybe not

I was hoping you'd call to say hello
maybe you were thinking of me
or would consider spending some time
or maybe not

I saw the look in your eyes last time we kissed
the sadness felt from lip to lip
I was hoping you'd open up
or maybe not

I seen the way you look at her
how your eyes admire her smooth brown skin
the hope that maybe one day she'd love you back
or maybe not

I hoped you listened last time we spoke
I promised to hold you and never let go
confessed love deeper than ocean floors...
or maybe not

I promised to love & cherish
Submit to you
just be here... be your rock
or maybe not

Maybe this time letting go wont be so hard
Maybe I'll no longer want to know...
Sometimes I just no longer want to feel
or maybe not


~A little piece of me~
~Hope you likey~

Gray Areas

Everyone wants to be "real". People claim they are the realest around. Well being "real" ain't so easy when emotions are involved. These gray areas come about when you don't want to hurt someone's feelings. 
It's such a gray area... you want to say I love you with all my heart but you don't say it because you you're not ready to accept rejection or just don't want to lose what you already have.
Can you keep it real AND take a chance on love? Just a thought. 

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Unconditional love is known as affection without any limitations.
Unconditional Love is a dynamic and powerful energy that lifts us through the most difficult times.
Is you love free of limitations?

Close your mouth!

Yeah I said it! Close ya mouth! Stop telling your friends all your business. They forget all the BS that they've been through with their man and tell you not to deal with yours. They tell you that they could never deal with a man like yours... Maybe even tell you that you're stupid. But guess what! All relationships have trial. No one is perfect! Yet we (people) tend to forget how what exactly we've gone through to get to where we are today.

What do you want?

Are you the woman that wants candy, flowers, romance? Will you appreciate the man that offers all of this and more? Now let’s be realistic here. Romance isn’t dead. It’s just expected in specific ways. Candle lit dinners, flowers,  blah blah blah. This is where us women (yes “us”, YOU, well lots of us) need to open our mind to other romantic possibilities other than what we see on TV.

 

It’s the moment he stops what he’s doing to give you a big embrace.  The moment you’re watching a movie and he kisses your hand. The moment you feel loved and he doesn’t even have to say it.

All that you see in the movies… candle lit dinners, flowers… all those things are possible with the man you have today. If those are the only things your relationship is lacking them MAYBE just MAYBE you should appreciate the man you have and romance him a bit. Your man needs to feel appreciate too!

 

But back to your ideal romantic situation… Do you know what that is?

Him

He’s open hearted, caring, loving, a great father, knows how to be my friend and my lover. Secure enough to know that I’ll never leave his side because he takes care of home. We give each other enough personal space so that our time together is much appreciated. He’s book smart & street smart. Knows how to handle my unconventional ways but loves me for that anyway. He knows all that I’ve been through because he’s been such a great listener. He forces me to articulate my feelings because he know that I rather not say a thing. I mostly push my feelings aside and pretend like its nothing. I don’t usually communicate well when it comes to my feelings. He figured me out. He touches my heart & soul in a way that no other man can. He lifts me up even when he’s not trying to.

Knows how to hold his feelings aside and responds to me like a true friend.

Because of all this… I want to love him even more. Show him love like he’s never seen before. Lift him up, be his #1 fan, his love, his friend
I just hope that when I see him... He's ready for me too.

Sometimes you never know love until you feel it. When it happens you must be ready to open your heart it. You can miss out on greatness if you don't.

Sometimes...

Sometimes you meet that guy that makes you want to smile again,  feel again, heck love again. Fall for this opportunity. Embrace the possibilities of greatness. Even if you are afraid. Be brave and willing to love and share love.

...and That's OKAY

You can meet lots of people, go on a few dates and not connect with anyone. Then there is that one person that comes along and makes you feel as if you can do this all over again. Guess you can say that I thought I found him. What I found was a little unexpected pain. Just a little.

I thought I found a friend… someone who was okay with me taking my time (If you know me, then you KNOW I can take A LOT OF TIME),  over the time he became a great lover. He made me want love again. I haven’t been intimate with a man in so long that I started to look forward to those intimate moments. I can tell you now, when you are intimate with someone an amazing bond can be created. It is truly a beautiful thing. I don’t recommend being intimate with just anyone. It takes away the true value of intimacy.

Getting to the point… People come into our lives for a reason. Sometimes it may not be what we want or how we expect it.  AND ITS OKAY!

Seven Johnson Said “Stop making your Preparer  your Priority. That  person isn’t meant to Open Their  Heart To Love You.. They’re there to Open The Door for Who’s Going To Love You.

The Reason that love Hurts A Lot is because you’re putting A LOT in what’s Meant To Hurt.”

I believe this person came into my life to prepare me for love. The little pain was short felt because he is still my friend. I may never know the full story and that’s okay with me. Friends are loving and caring no matter the situation. I am forever loving & caring with all of my friends.

"Stop waiting for my heart to take responsibility for its mistakes… There are no mistakes."