Lonely cold nights

Sometimes I sit and watch the rain. It so peaceful and calming. I just wish I had someone to sit here and reflect with me. Even if for a little while. The thought of companionship seems so close yet so far away. Cold lonely nights just don't get easy. Sometimes I wonder if there is really someone out there for me...
Someone who can be my friend, my love, a partner, my other half who can remind me that everything is going to be ok.
I'm know I'm not perfect or easily understood. Nights like this I just want to be held. What woman doesn't want to be held by that right person at that right moment.

I guess I'm totally having a moment right now.

...OR maybe NOT

I was scrolling through the numbers in my phone
I saw your name and
I attempted to push the call button
or maybe not

I was hoping you'd call to say hello
maybe you were thinking of me
or would consider spending some time
or maybe not

I saw the look in your eyes last time we kissed
the sadness felt from lip to lip
I was hoping you'd open up
or maybe not

I seen the way you look at her
how your eyes admire her smooth brown skin
the hope that maybe one day she'd love you back
or maybe not

I hoped you listened last time we spoke
I promised to hold you and never let go
confessed love deeper than ocean floors...
or maybe not

I promised to love & cherish
Submit to you
just be here... be your rock
or maybe not

Maybe this time letting go wont be so hard
Maybe I'll no longer want to know...
Sometimes I just no longer want to feel
or maybe not


~A little piece of me~
~Hope you likey~

Gray Areas

Everyone wants to be "real". People claim they are the realest around. Well being "real" ain't so easy when emotions are involved. These gray areas come about when you don't want to hurt someone's feelings. 
It's such a gray area... you want to say I love you with all my heart but you don't say it because you you're not ready to accept rejection or just don't want to lose what you already have.
Can you keep it real AND take a chance on love? Just a thought. 

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Unconditional love is known as affection without any limitations.
Unconditional Love is a dynamic and powerful energy that lifts us through the most difficult times.
Is you love free of limitations?

Close your mouth!

Yeah I said it! Close ya mouth! Stop telling your friends all your business. They forget all the BS that they've been through with their man and tell you not to deal with yours. They tell you that they could never deal with a man like yours... Maybe even tell you that you're stupid. But guess what! All relationships have trial. No one is perfect! Yet we (people) tend to forget how what exactly we've gone through to get to where we are today.

What do you want?

Are you the woman that wants candy, flowers, romance? Will you appreciate the man that offers all of this and more? Now let’s be realistic here. Romance isn’t dead. It’s just expected in specific ways. Candle lit dinners, flowers,  blah blah blah. This is where us women (yes “us”, YOU, well lots of us) need to open our mind to other romantic possibilities other than what we see on TV.

 

It’s the moment he stops what he’s doing to give you a big embrace.  The moment you’re watching a movie and he kisses your hand. The moment you feel loved and he doesn’t even have to say it.

All that you see in the movies… candle lit dinners, flowers… all those things are possible with the man you have today. If those are the only things your relationship is lacking them MAYBE just MAYBE you should appreciate the man you have and romance him a bit. Your man needs to feel appreciate too!

 

But back to your ideal romantic situation… Do you know what that is?

Him

He’s open hearted, caring, loving, a great father, knows how to be my friend and my lover. Secure enough to know that I’ll never leave his side because he takes care of home. We give each other enough personal space so that our time together is much appreciated. He’s book smart & street smart. Knows how to handle my unconventional ways but loves me for that anyway. He knows all that I’ve been through because he’s been such a great listener. He forces me to articulate my feelings because he know that I rather not say a thing. I mostly push my feelings aside and pretend like its nothing. I don’t usually communicate well when it comes to my feelings. He figured me out. He touches my heart & soul in a way that no other man can. He lifts me up even when he’s not trying to.

Knows how to hold his feelings aside and responds to me like a true friend.

Because of all this… I want to love him even more. Show him love like he’s never seen before. Lift him up, be his #1 fan, his love, his friend
I just hope that when I see him... He's ready for me too.

Sometimes you never know love until you feel it. When it happens you must be ready to open your heart it. You can miss out on greatness if you don't.

Sometimes...

Sometimes you meet that guy that makes you want to smile again,  feel again, heck love again. Fall for this opportunity. Embrace the possibilities of greatness. Even if you are afraid. Be brave and willing to love and share love.