My thoughts: I see said the blind.

I miss text messages that make me smile.

Something that says I'm thinking of you. 

I remember waking up to thoughtful sentiments in my inbox.

Every morning.

Good morning beautiful 

Good morning gorgeous 

Good morning Ms. wonderful 

Have a wonderful day my love

Jut random thoughtful sentiments that warmed my heart.

I mean how hard can it be to take some time out of your day to speak to the people you love? Specially when you don't see them every day. Maybe it's just me?

Maybe I'm the type that need occasionally terms of endearment. 

Why do we hold back on those we love but...

It's like we go where we are needed but not where we are cherished.

Break the chain. Love the people who love you back. Stop chasing after those who run. 

Actions vs. Intentions

Sometimes we have a desire for things were arent ready for. I want lots of things. We all do. Truth is you need to be in tuned with yourself to understand. You must pay attention to your actions. Are you doing exactly what you say you will do? If  not, do you understand your actions? 

If you're saying one thing and doing another, acknowledge it. We're not perfect yanno.

It's part of being credible.

Situationship: Hanging on

I've realized that we are situationships because we are comfortable.

 Face it... its hard enough to connect with someone. No one want to go through meeting someone new. Learning their issues and deciding if you really want to deal with them. The honey moon phase will make you rush into what may seem like a good thing. 

Sometimes its only good when we're together. 

I've been strung along before. I mean I've been in love before... with someone that didn't love me as much. In fact his heart belong to someone else.   Together it felt great. Although I couldn't fill his void. He was everything... he listen, he cared, he cooked and most importantly he made time. Then I realized that time was only at night. Not to say every night was about sex (that was not the case). It was a situation where we made time to give each other affection when we both were in need. There was no label... just love.

These moments are special.. but eventually you need more about of a situation. 

Thank God for enlightenment. 

Eventually we have to let go. For sanity's sake.

As a person. You deserved to be loved. Especially from those you love. It should be unconditional. It is meant to be reciprocated.

Which is why you shouldn't lead people into thinking that you may consider being with them.
True unconditional love is about making sure your loved ones are happy. Even if its not with you. 
Its not fair to them because of your selfishness.

Sex: Are you ready?

Sex changes the dynamics of a relationship. If you move too fast into sex then it can extent the honey moon phase. Sex is emotional. You really need to know if you're ready to share your body with someone. Its too often that people seek sex to replace void in their life.
Let's face it... it makes us feel good. Well duh! It helps our bodies produce endorphins. Which can also be produce by exercising. I'ts no wonder why active people are always happy. #teamfit is a way to happiness.

Think twice about sexual intercourse. Make sure you're both ready.

Valentine's Day: Thoughts

Valentine's day coming up and I know y'all plan on getting kinky...

So lets keep it smiple.

Ladies pay attention to your man!
Fellas pay attention to your woman!

Easy right? 

Married people don't wait until valentines day!
You married the love of your life. Lots of people wait all their life to do that!

Self: Acknowledgement & Healing

I'm always promoting SELF! I mean so much comes with the self. There is self love, self healing, self promotion but mainly self love. I'm always learning about myself. I was in an abusive relationship. I haven't been able to actually open up to a relationship for many reason. I've realized that the one of the things keeping me away from a relationship, just so happens to be a defense mechanism from past hurt. I've learned that I shut down in the middle of arguments. I shy away from small disagreements because I don't want it to turn into a physical altercation. Truth is... adults debate everyday. I just so happened to have been in fear for so long that I would have never noticed that I am still in fear today. I'm writing this in tears because its.... well... truth hurts. I used to think that I'm a runner. I can run from situations but isn't that the same as shying away?  I'm trying to get to the root of the situation. I want to be that person who can communicate. If you know ME then you know I remind people to communicate their feelings. That's a little hypocritical of me.

I thought I was over it... but as they say: "Actions speak louder than words".  I know I am not perfect. Is it wrong to just want a happy healthy relationship? How do you get to that point and need so much healing?

How do you tell your partner. " Hey I was in an abusive relationship so  you can't act that way"?  You don't... the intentions are just not the same. You can only hope that person is loving and caring enough to understand and help you work on changing for the better. I'm ready to change. I've opened my heart. That's a start right?

No fear in 2015. Personal grown is a necessity to becoming a better person.