Goodbye

Each thought is of you
I'd closed my eyes but then
your face brings me back
Here
sleepless nights and
Trying hard to hide behind red eyes
Weak
Famished
Unable to process our last transaction
So I lay
Here
Drenched in my pool of sadness
Sitting here hoping that maybe..
Just MAYBE if I can continue with this
Then maybe...
I can drown in my tears
We've said our goodbyes
For the last time
Made love
for the last time
Held you close
For the last time
So here I am
ready
To have my last breath
Life without love
Feels like death
Without you my heart can no longer continue
my feelings no longer exist
my brain no longer functions
but you can't say that I never tried
you seen all my  written
 Hellos, hey theres, and thinking of yous
This last time
its
Goodbye.

Having A Moment

Follow your heart... not your mind.
understand the difference between falling in love and falling into deep
Those that express your worth more important than you think
Inner beauty holds more value
If they held your hand the hole way, don't let go when you reach your destination

Smallest details of life are the most important and yet we (yes me too) push away those that are just too good to us. Mostly because they meet all but a few needs. When you learn to value yourself you will value those around you. When do we get back to appreciating everything around,  loving and respecting each other for our differences... I keep hearing everyone saying that we are living in the last but yet we don't treat it like its our last.

The beginning of Perfection?

Relationships take time to develop. No really. I get it through. We all want love. AND we want to show the world! Sometimes we forget that… “Love doesn’t boast”. A person who wants to be in love can fall fast. Falling fast can leave to heartbreak, fast. Of course heartbreak is not what we are looking for here. We want happiness, giggles, roses, candlelit dinner, and touching moment. Seriously though… happy healthy relationships will also have their downs.

Let me cut to the chase. The beginning will always be smiles & giggles. Don't forget that no one is perfect. I think that once we see that little bit of imperfections in a person... it gets hurtful. Sometimes we are not hurt intentionally, but that’s why you should take your time, get to know each other. Learning all that you can. Learn the good, bad & annoying before you decide to move forward. When you move forward…move forward together... Don't assume you're in a relationship if you both haven't agreed. When we really want love and companionship we really push forward.

Goal here is:

Don’t force anything.  Always remember: What is meant to be will be.

Valentine's Day: Every day

Every day is Valentine's when you're in love or just love your friends, family and those you spend the most time with. Don't wait until tomorrow to show someone how much you care for them. Dont wait until Valentine's day to show your appreciation.  Don't forget because you're too busy! Share love to your love ones every day.  Tomorrow is not promised. Appreciate today and stop waiting for what may not be here tomorrow.

Have a wonderful day folks!

Learning a lesson

Learn to deal with folks accordingly. Friends are genuinely happy for you. Frenemies don't know how to be happy for you.

Your path, happiness, Its there

The moment you stop seeking acceptance from other is the moment you find yourself. Your true self. Your wants & needs are not the same. Your journey is not the same as other. So stop seeking what makes others happy. Seek ye first the kingdom and know your path will lead to your own true happiness.

Love is Blind

Someone told me that you never stop giving up on the person you love. My thoughts are... What if that person loves someone else?

I've learned to deal with this thing called self torture long enough. That last phone call may have been hurtful. That last text message may have been hurtful.  Not angry hurtful but truthful hurtful.

You may think...  oh I'll just:

• Delete your number
• Delete all our text messages
• block you from facebook
• Delete all convos
• Just so I wont have to reference you at all.

Trust me this all sounds great. When you fall in love. When you find that happy place that keeps you coming back. That special part of someone that makes you feel like you can dust off the negativity and keep pushing. 

YOU HOLD ON! HOLD ON TIGHT!

See, it may be true that they love someone else but trust that they are not receiving the love that you give. Not from that other person.  This is why love is blind. We tend to mix up your wants/ needs between the heart and the mind.