Letting Go: The Blesson

We all go through that time where we are in need. In need of something. Whether its mental, physical, or emotional, there will be need. As I journey through this  path of a non-bitter woman, not allowing the past to anger my present, I’ve learned a few things. People come into our lives for different reason. Some come to stay and other just come to teach us something then move on. We have to accept people walking out of our lives. We have to let go to see the bigger picture.

 

A friend of mind, Q. Miles, posted the following on Facebook. It so relates to this. It’s crazy because he always posts things that relates to how I’m feeling. This blog is my way of releasing built up emotions.

"The reason a lot of people have not reached their potential & maximum success or happiness in life, is because there are Risks involved. One of the Risks we don't like is the risk of losing who we have always been around. Sometimes we have a Heart for people who don't have a Mind for us. Therefore, In order to reach the next level that God wants to take you or to maximize your potential & happiness. You will have to leave some people behind." - Q. Miles

You’ll never get what you truly deserve if you remain attached to what you’re supposed to let go of.

Letting Go: Not so hard

Soon as you let go of the one that's not trying to be kept by you...

You will see the one that's been trying to keep you. 

Trust I understand that we want what we can't have. Don't let your your mind confuse your heart into wanting something that isn't right for you. You can say Mel you don't get it. We have a connection. This time it's different. Let Mel tell you that I've been there and I've done that. Love is letting them go. LET GO! No matter how much it hurts you. When you love yourself it don't hurt as much as you think. You can say Mel but I love myself! I know you not saying I have low self esteem. What I'm saying is, when you love yourself so much, the way that God loves you, you trust the plan that he has for you. You don't hold on to people because you're feeling as though you need them in your life. 

Goodbye

Each thought is of you
I'd closed my eyes but then
your face brings me back
Here
sleepless nights and
Trying hard to hide behind red eyes
Weak
Famished
Unable to process our last transaction
So I lay
Here
Drenched in my pool of sadness
Sitting here hoping that maybe..
Just MAYBE if I can continue with this
Then maybe...
I can drown in my tears
We've said our goodbyes
For the last time
Made love
for the last time
Held you close
For the last time
So here I am
ready
To have my last breath
Life without love
Feels like death
Without you my heart can no longer continue
my feelings no longer exist
my brain no longer functions
but you can't say that I never tried
you seen all my  written
 Hellos, hey theres, and thinking of yous
This last time
its
Goodbye.

Having A Moment

Follow your heart... not your mind.
understand the difference between falling in love and falling into deep
Those that express your worth more important than you think
Inner beauty holds more value
If they held your hand the hole way, don't let go when you reach your destination

Smallest details of life are the most important and yet we (yes me too) push away those that are just too good to us. Mostly because they meet all but a few needs. When you learn to value yourself you will value those around you. When do we get back to appreciating everything around,  loving and respecting each other for our differences... I keep hearing everyone saying that we are living in the last but yet we don't treat it like its our last.

The beginning of Perfection?

Relationships take time to develop. No really. I get it through. We all want love. AND we want to show the world! Sometimes we forget that… “Love doesn’t boast”. A person who wants to be in love can fall fast. Falling fast can leave to heartbreak, fast. Of course heartbreak is not what we are looking for here. We want happiness, giggles, roses, candlelit dinner, and touching moment. Seriously though… happy healthy relationships will also have their downs.

Let me cut to the chase. The beginning will always be smiles & giggles. Don't forget that no one is perfect. I think that once we see that little bit of imperfections in a person... it gets hurtful. Sometimes we are not hurt intentionally, but that’s why you should take your time, get to know each other. Learning all that you can. Learn the good, bad & annoying before you decide to move forward. When you move forward…move forward together... Don't assume you're in a relationship if you both haven't agreed. When we really want love and companionship we really push forward.

Goal here is:

Don’t force anything.  Always remember: What is meant to be will be.

Valentine's Day: Every day

Every day is Valentine's when you're in love or just love your friends, family and those you spend the most time with. Don't wait until tomorrow to show someone how much you care for them. Dont wait until Valentine's day to show your appreciation.  Don't forget because you're too busy! Share love to your love ones every day.  Tomorrow is not promised. Appreciate today and stop waiting for what may not be here tomorrow.

Have a wonderful day folks!

Learning a lesson

Learn to deal with folks accordingly. Friends are genuinely happy for you. Frenemies don't know how to be happy for you.

Your path, happiness, Its there

The moment you stop seeking acceptance from other is the moment you find yourself. Your true self. Your wants & needs are not the same. Your journey is not the same as other. So stop seeking what makes others happy. Seek ye first the kingdom and know your path will lead to your own true happiness.

Love is Blind

Someone told me that you never stop giving up on the person you love. My thoughts are... What if that person loves someone else?

I've learned to deal with this thing called self torture long enough. That last phone call may have been hurtful. That last text message may have been hurtful.  Not angry hurtful but truthful hurtful.

You may think...  oh I'll just:

• Delete your number
• Delete all our text messages
• block you from facebook
• Delete all convos
• Just so I wont have to reference you at all.

Trust me this all sounds great. When you fall in love. When you find that happy place that keeps you coming back. That special part of someone that makes you feel like you can dust off the negativity and keep pushing. 

YOU HOLD ON! HOLD ON TIGHT!

See, it may be true that they love someone else but trust that they are not receiving the love that you give. Not from that other person.  This is why love is blind. We tend to mix up your wants/ needs between the heart and the mind.

The Challenge: Mind over matter

I thought I'd give it all I have this year. Love that is. Then something happened. I started this emotional phase and I lost track of my priorities. Does this ever happen to you?  Everyone around is either with someone, getting engaged or married. Sometimes you feel like you're the only one. The Single Friend! Let me tell you that you are not alone. Nothing wrong with being human and wanting to feel and be loved. The moment you lose track of your priorities by paying too much attention to what is going on around you...  you stumble a little. And that's okay.
 Never fear though!  Just keep on stepping. Get back on track of doing things as you should. And guess what!  It will all fall into place.

The Signs

Do you know the signs? I'm still learning some, but here are a few to remember. I know sometimes we (women) tend to ignore the signs because everything is going well. He Its always perfect in the beginning.  Its like the honeymoon phase. You know the part before you hear the other person fart. Or that period of time before you are comfortable to full relieve yourself in his restroom. (Hey we are human too)

Here are some key words:

I'm too good for you.
Translation: I'm not ready for what you want. You would be great for someone who is.

I dont want to hurt you
Translation: I'm still doing my thing. There's someone else that I'd rather give more of my time to.

I'm spending N.Y.E with who I plan to spend my year with.
Translation: I wont be with you NYE because I dont plan on being with you in the new year.

There I've said it! Listen to him. If you have questions, ask him!

Just dont fall for the bull$h!t that sounds all sweet and special.

Happy New Year: 2013

Happy New Year Everyone! 2012 is officially over. Now is the time to get your new year resolutions together if you haven't already.

This year I've decided not to have any resolutions. I'm working on life changes that will hopefully effect my life in a positive way. I will continue to work on my goals (still writing and separating those). Goals should always be reevaluated and changed as your priorities in life change.

Current things I am working on: writing, jewelry making, and a new project in the works.
I will continue to work on myself and my writing. I love to write poetry, short stories (Hot on my to do list), blogs (duh of course) and other sorts of copy.
I make jewelry and I will continue projects as needed.
I also have a new project in the work. This will be a make it or break it situation and I hope that this is the one that will work its way into a full time career. Wish me luck!

Oh! Let's not forget love! This is the year I'm 100% open and giving my all to love. I have been extremely patient and hoping that my heart will chose wisely.  I pray that my next choice will be my last choice.

Happy New Year Everyone! May your 2013 be filled with life, love and happiness.